at four

I moved a bunch of things around
at four
a.m.
and
do you ever feel that way that makes
you move
by impulse

maybe a sign of depression
of
at least preoccupation

then
to hope by the day inhabited
more sensibly
changes all
look or serve in another way all right

about the depression I have pills
and counseling
and
then the need to be up at four moving things
around
in what I think is
my home
life
though I’m not sure I was thinking anything so grand then
in
the dark hour rather unsaintly
of unknowing

and now
I think on it
I knew
a chaplain who when he had to told me
that he cleaned his place at
two
antemeridian
that is

c l couch


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