unbelieving Sunday best

I
think I should go
I have some coffee
to ready me
chemically
and maybe throw enough together
       there is hot water
       with some handsoap
       nearby
       and clothes
       that should pass muster
       one
       more time
and so acceptably for an hour or so
then
back to exile
and the loneliness
but have had the hour
for faith and companionship
while keep
the faith
let go of the rest
as illusion
I
belong

enough to hope to find
other
than I the healthy
perfect you
and
if unbeknownst
you could leave with me
then
who knows
sometimes I could enter
faith and love
not needing to believe in these
or
that they are for you
yet also
me

coda

sip the coffee then
ten minutes to get ready
ten to get there

eight
and eight

c l couch


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