I Do Confess ’t



God

I feel fat

Like the fat

That Gertrude

Said of Hamlet

Meaning

Tired

Or unprepared

Or

You know

Fat



I think

You’re with me

On the inside

And guide me

From there

The presence

Of your

Spirit

Prompting

Poking

Whatever motion

Works



And I

Recalcitrant

(and fat)

Do not get it

Push back

With my own will

‘Til near

Destruction

Sometimes

And

Sometimes

Even after



You’re with me

When I’m

Slow

And wrong

Through the thickness

Of my flesh

That hides

Everything I want

To hide

Awareness of the harm

I cause

In all directions

To all souls



And do I do

So much

Or

Take too much credit

With vanity

Somehow

In deprivation

When

I know

You can ameliorate

Reach out

In dreams

Or more directly

Touching the vibrations

Of heart-wisdom

In the hurt

And maybe

For the moment

Lost



C L Couch





QUEEN   He’s fat and scant of breath.—			Hamlet 5.2.313



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