vicissitude
Luke 22:44-46
if I were tired from sorrow only
that
is exhausting
and stillness took over my body to
sleep
and I slept
and then I were scolded
after the supper
after
being called friend the first
time and
having been asked specifically for
companionship
awake
and praying with
the Lord
and wouldn’t I be exhausted
too
and so could lose my way through praying
and it is night
and it gets late
and
yes
it’s Jesus
and it’s also human me
and if Jesus said to wait and pray
would I not have been invested
with
the energy and other wherewithal to join
and
maybe I had received
and still
slept
anyway
so there’s not excuse
but an excuse
and
I’m made of willing spirit and unwilling
flesh
and how to feel when Jesus tells
me I
have
failed
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44 And in His anguish, He prayed more earnestly, and His sweat became like drops of blood falling to the ground.
45 When Jesus rose from prayer and returned to the disciples, He found them asleep, exhausted from sorrow. 46 “Why are you sleeping?” He asked. “Get up and pray so that you will not enter into temptation.”
Luke 22
Berean Study Bible
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up hill and
well
I wasn’t sure
you’d really like to know
or I
and
so let go the pedals
that I might
on the hill
the downward side
coast a while and like the trite crossing
I could
look
yes
at you and around
and listen
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a silly rabbit
by no theology
and God
I want
to be with you
and be here with you
‘cause this
is what I know
and
have I had a taste
some kind of earthly introduction
to paradise and I don’t know
could
be in worship maybe
out of my
tradition to take
part in Communion
feeling the elements of you go in and
down
I guess
and all around
to sound puerile about it
like the wheels on the bus
or
the digging of Mike Mulligan or
go
dog
go
go
me
go
to God and not
to die
but so to live
and what I have for now
and navigating fields
poorly
‘til what I have is gone
except for spirit and
the body
that with a home and these
shall
last
we’re told or by some impulse anyway
to know
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several things from childhood are cited (and more I am remembering)
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waking again
God
be with me today
Immanuel
and owning all the other names we give
though
it’s your presence
bold to ask for
not
really knowing with theology
or
religious fear
what I am asking and most of all
of whom
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common book of prayer
God
forgive me
and help me
and is this so bad
a prayer
not
to utter most days
to start
or sometime throughout
it’s my
common prayer
as if I kept a common book
from which
I read
depending on the hours
it’s presuming
I suppose
if
asking
belief that God will forgive
and
God will help
and maybe the two-step isn’t needed
since
God might help me
anyway
not waiting for even personally determined
forms of doctrine
for
the hours
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“Ain’t no love in the heart of the city.”
San Francisco (USA)
after drafting
sigh
have I said something for you
yet
not that it’s a desperation
yet
well
but relevance
a reaching out
to find acceptance
more
so alliance
well
to be in touch
at least
and maybe most
if
by the aptitudes we have
and hope
your
reaction might be good
good for you
that is
maybe your conviction
certainly your more plainly passing through
the day
go
well
if not
if I may say
go better
as you often make a day
better
for me
and thank you
and what
do you know
we’re here
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I’m nervous over an operation I have tomorrow
I’m nervous when you have operations
valleys of fear
fear
the Lord
so we won’t fear on Earth
and yet
we’re human
and we will
I think I’ve read that
fear is not of God
which
sounds ominous for all we have it
and
have it closely
well
we’re flawed
blame everything
and
yes
I think it all gets better when
we’re well
and
when we’re well for good
sigh
and I’ve done a little checking to distinguish
fear
the spirit of fear from Timothy
the fear not
given us
the fear that begins
wisdom from
Proverbs that is
the fear
of God
and I’ve thought the second fear
is awe
and should we ever meet
in the same room how
would we
fear the Lord
when
even angels address fear as in fear-not
severally when they appear
fear
don’t be afraid
keep the wonder
maybe
the truth closely of God
and
God with us
and
yeah
I’m still worried for tomorrow
and I worry over you
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2 Timothy 1:7 = For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and self-control.
Proverbs 9:10 = The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding.
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trying still too sick
outside might agree with me
green vying with white
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as Golgotha at home
vicarious
surrogate
the pain of God
on
Calvary
and so take on the unsaving burdens
of the world
without
perhaps the world asking
in fact
the world go so far as to realize the killing
whose pain to
bear
and should I ask to move away
the suffering
like the onerous
stone
each day
and should I ask hers even more
to go
though it’s false-brave of me to say
and yet
the sacrifice was there
and
does it mean
refer to and change
both kinds of pain
the body’s
and the spirit’s
and
I don’t know
but heal her
please
and then may I ask
heal me
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