What Shall Break Through
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Unreadiness
Winter quiet
Though it’s weeks
Away
The sky is thinking on it
And the ground becomes more laden
Storing what it needs to store
Welcoming the flora
Fauna
That shall be sleeping there
It looks like snow
And if I were outside
I might say it smells like snow as well
Breathes
The new season
However apprehensively
About extremities
Of ice in breath
And snow
That the insides of our bodies
Will not be ready for
If ever
Like the extremes of summer
I suppose
2
Birth of a Mystic
Still
And still
Like the monk
The hermit
I await
And
Yes
These could be women
And each was
The desert mothers
Julian and cat
(female or male cat
I do not know
or
if there were ever
any kittens)
Hildegard
Teresa
Evelyn for the moderns
And who waits inside the cave
For insight now
Who bears the vision
We shall hear about
That
Shall be approved
A new generation
One of those young persons
Who dreamed dreams
And set them down
Enough
For publication
Or simply hearing here and there
Now and then
Until
The books
With illustrations
Shall appear
And we shall know we have something
Set
And new
3
Dream Dreams
And shall the winter bring them on
The ordinary
And the visionary
Angels adept upon the scene
To work
With mortals
To let grace behind the curtain
Become miracle
Upon the stage
Though none of it is acting
Though it might be staged like
Jacob
Or like Bethlehem
Or the leaping suns
At Fatima
Or like the truce of 1914
That was like
That was
Grace
And miracle as well
Human gifts
No doubt angel-approved
When all could breathe
A moment
Inside heaven
While on the field
The wired
Trenched
And blooded field
There could be such a peace
For a few hours
Even gifts and photographs
To mark
The Christmas season
And now
I am afield
Dealing in ordinary mystics
But they’re there
They’re here
Thank goodness
And with
The names
And books
And famous patroned pets
Shall breathe in each of us beholding
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New Pages in a Book of Hours
The liturgy
As clouds for notes
Against the sky
An antiphon of leaves
As wind
Blows through them
As candlelight
Reflections
Off of water
And should anything
Feathered
Or mammalian
Be chirping
Chittering
We’ll take that as
Responding to
The sun as celebrant
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Now the Fifth of July
(in the USA and everywhere that has the day)
Now it matters
The purpose of the fireworks
And picnics
After the celebration
And we hope the
Cleaning up
The life begins
That matters
Because it’s every day
It might not have ribbons floating
Over
Celebrations
It might not afford
Much by way of
Worldly excitement
Being
You know
Ordinary
But here it is
And here’s the test
Which is all right
Because
It’s all the same
We fail to live
We fail
After all
We choose to live
And bless the every day
We have a chance for
A nation
And a world
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The Mystic, Ordinary Process
(for Evelyn Underhill)
Live the way I want
To
Which would mean
Living with you
With your nearness
With
Your love
And as a recipient of mine
Learning anew to pray
Into the world
For everything that’s wrong
And to keep
As in care for
Everything
That’s right
To practice confessing
Beyond
I’m sorry
To live out penance
Through listening
Responding to the world
And what is needed
Here
There is
So much to do
At Pooh Corner
Though contemplatives might say
The real action
As is said of many things
Is actually in the heart
And in the head
As vessels of the Spirit
Even launchpoints
For the Lord
To think
Canaveral about it all
Then to the world
To the rawness of it
To the terrors
And the grossness
And also
To the beauty
Of it all
This is
So strange
To say
And will you be with me
When my dignity’s
Surrendered
And I stand bloodied
Before
Ersatz courts
Places of injustice
Even fortresses
From which I know
Nothing
Of the entrance
Or the exit
My way through
Must be with you
Even if I’m on the way
To an earthly version
Of infernos
Not because
There is a heaven
On the other side of that
(I’m not that smart
to know)
But because I’m trying
(yes
I know
I’m trying
hah)
And you honor me enough
Bestowing companionship
Which is
I know
Enormous honor
So be with me simply
Because simple
Is all I really know
Not without art
Or an acknowledgement of grace
To have things
Understood as
Special
When things are barely moving
Or
Even in crisis
Something remarkable
(dare I say
amazing)
And when it’s quiet
And as
Such
The hour is
Still
And it’s
Simple
Easy
Once again
Plus there might be someone
And-or
It’s the two
Or three
Or four of us
And that’s a party
In which
Loving things are said
Loving games are played
And we discuss
The nature
And the aspects
And
Well
The now
Also into the future
Of everything
Foray into the past
When necessary
To keep the rest
I know
Real
But it’s now
And you are now
Help me
Forgive me
Stay with me
As I would be with you
Perfectly
But so imperfectly
For now
Until you teach me
In a place of
Frankly
Afterlife and grace
Thank you for faith
And even my response
As is
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look out now
merest blue
it seems
with
a guess
more than a hint
of more light
behind
what do we call it
pre-pre dawn
that
spell-check
would challenge
when we
write about this
later
expect it
o be cold
and so allowably
do
what we do
a time
to pull around
more clothing
from the bed
or closet
on the chair
(maybe
the floor)
to find some extra
socks
(maybe on
the floor)
drink water
also look for something
warm
that could be from
another body
or if alone
from coffee
or if not
from both
nice morning
well
a morning
like a morning
should we not stop
by
the fence
somewhere
to look around
without our eyes
to get it
this happened
yesterday
and
it’s extraordinary
‘morning
everyone
look around
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(update on the computer shutdown from a few days ago)
my computer is not working right, though it’s okay in bouts (me, too); a friend suggested I use a table fan to deal with overheating (maybe for both of us), and she’s right—the measure seems to work for now though it’s probably an unrealistic arrangement for durance
(x = space)
x
x
(sorry, this is long—and rather existential)
x
x
World without End except It Ends
(a kind of rhapsody)
x
And how are things
In Ukraine
And how are the Rohingya
The indigenous in
Amazonia
(where it
turns out
no tall women
cast like
Gal Gadot)
And in NZ
And the USA
x
And how are they recovering
From earthquakes in India
And Pakistan
(and give thanks for rescues
from the mines)
Plus the quakes before
In Syria
x
Dealing with the aftereffects
On Maui
And now a new spill
Of a million gallons
In our
Gulf
x
We go to war
Nature beats us down
And yet I’m quiet in a minute
(coughing slightly)
With the morning sun
And branches
Scraping a Hallowe’en hello
Against the window
x
And the kitchen sink
Is stopped
And there are fruit flies
From the bananas
That I dared to buy the other day
And sinuses
And heart disease
That go on
x
And there is not a feeling
Of assessment
Or of judgment
Things are the way they are
It is what it is
We are dust in the wind
Qué será
Será
(every generation
needs this lyric)
x
I am safe for now
That’s why
I don’t feel bitter in the world
Except sometimes
When the thought is thought
Or something happens
Even though there’s faith
x
And there is faith
Nothing extraordinary
One might think it
Feel it
Commonly
And every day
Through prayer enforced
In every hour
x
Faith in God
More than each other
Though in each other
Too
And even in the world
God help us
(and God will)
While we have the world
Not each for each one
But
(Dumas
D’Artagnan)
One for all
x
But faith
But hope and love
That’s how it goes
With the greatest
We are told
Is love
And have I love
Have you
And does it keep us
From the Trough
Of Despair
x
And to correct
That’s ancient Greek
And economics
While the giant is
Despair
And there is challenging
For Pilgrim
The Slough of Despond
(funny how some college readings
don’t stay with you)
x
Right or wrong
We have the world
And ourselves
We breath
Sometimes in contemplation
Seeking mysticism
Or simply get us through
The day before us
As we dread it
Or we fear it
x
There is a war zone
Though I don’t face
Maybe with you
Blood and disaster
Lack of reason
All of explosions’
Randomness
But there is a war zone
One big one everywhere
It’s spiritual
(big deal
you might say
in which
there are
no broken bones
no wishes
for a ceasefire
in so many other places)
Though it is real
x
It wants to pull us down
To smother
Or to drown us
So that we cannot
Look out clear
Or up above
For quotidian metaphor
Since underneath miasma
Or on the other side
Of despair
There is source of faith
As well
Reason to hope
Impetus to love
x
Shantih
I’m nobody
Too
Let’s not advertise
Keep it simple
Keep it quiet
Layer the world’s noise
Above
On all sides
Below
x
For on the breastplate
It is etched
That the source is everywhere
(like Savoir Faire
je ne sais quoi
and so stay
chez lui)
x
Hurry up
Please
We have no time
The Rider’s on the loose
The Dark is rising
Look for holiday scenes
Also in
Roll of Thunder
Hear My Cry
And even
Murder mysteries
(looking at you
Louise Penny)
x
And how have the spirits
Told us over ages
Still listening
By the adept
God blessing the dispossessed
Living within
Unjust environs
x
We devalue
The supernal
Yet look for it
In seminars
And everything
That tells us about God
Without God
Which is okay
I guess
Money that’s wasted
Must be wasted on something
x
Set God aside
(God is used to this)
How are we knit
Regardless
Well
Through capillaries
Synovia
All the ways our bodies
Work
More or less
x
In floors
Between skyscrapers
(yes
I know
‘til they fall)
In rivers moving through
The plains
To make grand canyons
x
Through overlays of roads
We lay of web
There are great potholders
With a better need
For infrastructure
But look at the lights
From space
The synaptic pattern
Of our world
x
For now
We got one
We have each other
x
And how are things
In Glocca Morra
I feel
I have to say that
And the tune go through my head
All day
And what is yours
x
We sing
If only through our brain cells
Maybe through memories
Or if we must
Out loud
x
As many say
(and sing)
The extraordinary
In the ordinary
We must have this
It parallels
The things made not
By us
But for us
After all
x
What crowns creation
Us or sabbath
And besides the heads
With angels dancing
For a count
Who really cares
Since God wears the crown
And that is that
x
A crown of Earth
Some think
Though it isn’t
There
x
Worlds of all kinds
Aren’t crowns
Or bear them
We visit
Truly visit
And we know
x
So let ambition
Have a better end
Reach in all directions
For what’s
Next
What is today’s
What’s in the hour
All the hours we
Are given
And have left
x
Let’s not be
Moribund
In attitude
Not while there is
So much
For us
And that we make
To make
To last
To prosper
Even in
Disposable economies
x
There is grace
With
Gracia
In the world
And intrusions of miracles
All the time
And we medically
Constructively
Artisanally
Make our own
x
What shall we make
Though
As we know
We don’t take it with us
Even cells
But leave things behind
That in eternity
Is dross
But become
Legacies
For those still
Living here
x
All the names
All the actions
All we own
Or think we own
They matter
Though all matter
Be reformed
(as in re-informed
and in
the usual kind
like Protestants
now let’s all cheer like Protestants
which is in the movie)
x
Nothing lasts
And everything lasts
It’s our memory
And God’s computer
Accounting angels
Excused from the heads of pins
To do the real
Work
In magnificent
And terrifying shape
Which is why
They’re always saying
Do not be afraid
x
Don’t be afraid
Though
There are fearful things
We can resort
To faith
Hope
Or love
Or simply
Painfully
Endure
x
Enduring’s good
(so’s faith)
For keeping us
Around
‘Til something better
Happens
And maybe resolution
For what has hurt
Has wounded us
For so long
Or a day
x
Hang on
Hurry
Or don’t hurry
We have the hour
Candlelight
Inside the mind
And with our bodies
Move ourselves
Whole or partial
Through the day
x
Dear ones
God is here
And we are here
Our touch is easier
For flesh
x
So let flesh
With spirit bless
The first
A mortal blessing
Less to bestow
But we can do it
The second
From an origin
That is not us
But like us
We are like
x
And let there be amen
If this is prayer
Or in another attitude
Say grace
That isn’t grace
But the best
We might do
x
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(bye, bye, M—, well, you know who)
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The Yazoo River out of its banks near highway 61 North. Flood waters up to the levee road.
x
(x = space)
x
x
the devil
(you say)
x
the tempter
the corrupter
the ruiner of things
resist
no thanks
go away
we’ll bring in professionals
xxxxxif we have to
diaspora
we’re spread apart
you like us this way
we don’t believe in
xxxxxtogether
should we understand
that we are three in one
because God is
(that is the pattern)
we can stand alone
xxxxxJesus
xxxxxJohn
xxxxxElijah
xxxxxMoses
xxxxxeach and all did that
goodness, we know that well
but to be together
find gentle,
overwhelming power in that
we don’t know that
not anymore
not since the last time
and the time to come
and meantime?
we are together all the time
we only need to turn
to find each other
share the tiny glory
in that
the tiny victories
that add up
or they don’t
breathe in
breathe out
let life happen
as it’s supposed to happen
our alone times
our together state
the glory of the Lord
shine through
all shapes and sizes
everything and everyone
inside creation
not the devil
that gave up all right
to enter realms instead
of nothingness
x
x
elements
x
matter merges
xxxxxspiritual and fleshly
xxxxxmaterial
xxxxxgrain and grapes
xxxxxtogether
xxxxxeach part
xxxxxand together
xxxxxchanged
xxxxxinto finer things
xxxxxcloser to purpose
xxxxxcloser to creation
xxxxxand creation
xxxxxand what is finer than
xxxxxa smidgeon more intentional?
xxxxxall the wonder
xxxxxsimple and refined
xxxxxis here
xxxxxmade from the start
xxxxxmade full
xxxxxby God
xxxxxJesus
xxxxxand the Spirit
xxxxxwho are here
xxxxxwhose substance
xxxxxwhose presence
xxxxxis in here
xxxxxand is in you
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notes
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I’m sorry, while drafting I couldn’t think of women in the Bible who stood or prayed or fled to be alone; now I think that Mary could have been by herself when encountered by the angel and in her response to the announcement and the will of God; Judith might have prayed on her own, away, as well; and Esther might have planned the salvation of Israel in the same way
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(x = space)
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a day like no other
(16 March)
x
we had our Ides
tomorrow is Saint Patrick’s
famous days
while
this day is ordinary
formless
without expectation
to do with what
we will
thank goodness
x
it is a Lenten day
for seasons
and liturgic calculation
and it’s important
as a day in forty days
for thinking
and for faith
for faithful thinking
x
but otherwise
it is alone
between two famous days
so different
that we cannot call today
a bridge
it simply is as is
x
and ready
for whatever
we might
unfamously do
x
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(x = space)
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Ordinaryism
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Well,
It’s less expensive
To take a table outside
A favorite place
Or to discover
Than to take a cruise
Or fly within
Something wide-bodied
Keeping the moving air
Of the fan
The air out of the nozzle
Going
x
Not that those things
Aren’t fine
They are
And we should like them
Should we have them
But if you have a friend at
Table anywhere
Maybe two friends
Maybe more
x
You are at
The high table in the great hall
Of monarchs
A gilded place
The café
Of your liking
Like the stories
And like Earth’s
And humankind’s
Storied luxuries
x
We have what we have
And let ambition call
And love each day
Find something
Change the quotidian,
If need be
Reach out
Get help
Maybe at that table
(try not
to apologize)
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Or let the table simply be
An inexpensive place
And a gathering
Without agenda
Part of the joy
The easy joy
In having what the human world
Would say is not a game-show prize
But that you know
And your company
Is priceless
Because there is no price
Except for coffee
Maybe rolls or cake
Or whatever pleasure
The menu
And today
Afford
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(I guess such a gathering might seem precious in the days of a pandemic, the reality and process, of learning how to wrap it in like SARS or H1N1 though of a worse disease—but I hope that one day easy meetings with our friends will happen once again; I’m sure the cafés hope so, too
yes, I know, we’re meeting now—I simply wish we’d work that out more safely)
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