a Tuesday to try to be with God
(sorry while it’s long)

so about you
Lord
and may I call you
Lord
though you are nameless

or all names
somehow

and how do I know you unseen
evidence
unseen

the mystics knew
I guess
and Doctors of the Church
or
anyone who wrote enough or was
recorded
so they say
and
so we know

and
does this work
of
sayings
little flowers

to
go through entire books

and maybe so

maybe
we know you through these pages
or could it
be
unworded
leaves in forests

because nature
may testify as well

yet
by disaster
we might ask as well

the punishments
of fire
or of quakes or magma from
eruptions

how or what
what might we might learn
of you
and your intentions on this Earth
that
you have made

and yet
if we kept our distance
measured well
and
kept our visits seasonal
I don’t know

I guess
we’d still have problems
and to wonder
over
cynicism learned

or is
there hope on Earth and by
catastrophes
we
learn readiness and response
Earthly
for each other

all sides of gospel then
like sides
of nature whispering
or
shouting

yet
all this
not enough to know
you
and why bother through our limitations
limitations over
you about
your
nature and your presence

and yet we love you
and we think
       go as far as to testify
that you
love us
and
maybe have a plan for each

though needing elasticity
as we respond
this way or
that
by choices
since
we understand
that will and freedom should
be ours

and maybe that is
so
that is
your flexible designs so we may select for
real
somehow and yet by you

we decide and
you
affirm ahead of
time
and ready to receive us
as you are God

yet you are God

why bother
waiting for us
but
then why have us
anyway

why make us when creation seemed
so perfect in the story

and then we get here

and we go too far by will
into war and other violence

much of it
close to home

ask Tamar
in the house of David

we are so easy moved by greed
also
pretense to power
since power is from you
and lent
as lent
for a time

all the things we do

we build
and then let fall

our egos drive

we develop false philosophies
movements that bring others down
with us

and may I ask
of our bodies
Lord

yes
groups
and I mean each actual
physical

skin and muscles around bones
organs
within

as they are
so strong

and so fragile

sigh
too much or too little
but there is
love
and faith

and if wisdom must allay itself before
fullness
and
perfection

well
so it is
like many things that are
and we don’t know them while
we have them
two
aspects of creation
even
of two parts of wonder

with aspects
like facets

while you are God
and I happen
to be I
and all of us
be
all of us
with
enough totality while we may wonder
in our ways
over
all the rest
until all the rest revealed

and
still might need interpretation
until you speak through angels
loud
(maybe not so loud)
and clear

c l couch


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