poor disguise

when you don’t get what you want
or what you need
does God still
listen
does God still
love

if so
then why did we not get what we need
some would say
because I didn’t make it and bank it
then it didn’t matter
some would say
because
God
does not love me or like me
or no longer listens to me
for
I must be bad
certainly asking for bad things
even those things might be
my parent’s health
my child’s health
health
in the world
my own

why are we wrong
why does God not like me
and
some would say
I know the answer
and if you follow me
you’ll
know

and this becomes a lion in a skin
Aslan-fakery
the spirit that is tested and it fails
and
still is followed

and there will be a hand
and
it might not be ours
but it will formulate and re-formulate
according to the truth reminded
that
hadn’t changed
and doesn’t
which is justice then
mercy
and the best notion of freedom we are going to have

and what happens to false prophets
sometimes they are whomped on
sometimes
they run away
and
it’s a better day for the retaining faithful

and as for pain
we might have to own it
or
go through it
for a while
and it
will hurt
and I’m uncertain why

and would not wish that for you

it doesn’t
teach us to appreciate the positive
but
it might
teach us
something hopeful
after
or even in the middle

c l couch

photo by Bret Lama on Unsplash

the lion (fake/real) story is in The Last Battle by C. S. Lewis